Extended Stay

I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to say, I don’t know how I can make you never feel this way, All your life I’ve been the one to make your problems disappear, Now I’m forced to watch you self-destruct which was my greatest fear, I’m neutered and useless to the demons afflicting your soul, Never in my life have I been in a situation where I had zero control, It tears me up inside to see your sorrow and hear “I hate you”, If only you knew how much I fault myself you’d know what is really true, I cry to myself because your actions lack logic or reason, Your moods are as varied as the changing of the seasons, I just want to go back to the days when you smiled and laughed and showed so much love, Instead of the present where you scream from lack of self-awareness and hurt and shove, I pray that your hate for me does not last until my final day, Because of your blaming of me for your extended stay.